on vanity
Friday, November 27, 2009 @ 12:17 PM
"I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems"
-Fire flies by Owl City
i just got out from the shower. i stood up in front of the mirror for half an hour; unbelieving the face in front of me was rather i myself. i saw in both sides of my eyes two crow's feet wrinkles. im shocked. like, till now.
i couldnt believe it. true true.
i am, undoubtfully, AGING.
im only twenty, and i had sensitive, dry skin every since i knew. maybe my face's just dry, or maybe i really am aging. gahd. nooo.
my newborn nephew came to this world with me not beside my sister; i was beside Nica on Andrew's bed. more than miles to them.
time flies REALLY fast noh? you're 10, getting ready for school with your trunk loads of books (that you never read, until your teacher told you so) then you realize your infront of someone's computer typing on your stupid blog. independent. out of school. no plans of how tomorrow would begin. well, that's me. you can imagine yours cant you?
plus
id be 21 in 4 months now. though my mentality paused when i was 13.
anyway. my face's fuglier than ever, with the wrinkles, shiny nose and bigger pores, i now see my self trully PANGET. my friends're really trying to save it by saying i still look good; i dont though.
i never see myself any prettier anyway. im just trying to believe on it. goodthing i got my boyfriend. haha
i hope i can still make these wrinkles disappear before 2012. most believe its the end of the world, if it is, well i wanto die least looking good. diba? :D