alpha female.



im not. i just like being one so much that i pretend to be one. like even in dreams.

adolf hitler once said, repeat a lie over and over until it becomes the truth.

maybe one day i will be, or not.

it doesnt make a big difference anyway. im a part of 'THE CROWD' (though im not sure if i still am) i dont need to make anything to prove something. i already did.
you dont need to be alpha or have higher means when youre at home. yes friends are home.
perhaps the alpha female attitude would be necessary at work, or some place casual.

or with strangers. the snobbish you are, the better.
the attitude: aptitude of confidence.

with the women on top nowadays,
the value of "damsel-in-distress" and "sweep-me-off-my-feet" has been now mislaid with the men just fearful of having a crushed skull if SHE chucks in disapproval of whatever he might do.


sitch:
my boyfriend just wont kiss me first, he'd wait until i do.
WHY?!
reading his mind (or from his approach)

a.) he might get disappointed if i ever dont want to kiss, so he tends to wait, rather than act first.
b.) he really likes me slutty. period.
c.) he doesnt really want to kiss but gives in when i do or i might pull out my potato face and throw fit.


i can guess he sees me alpha. (can you tell from the choices above?) not that it looks sexy, rather im sensing he's just afraid. of me. HE IS AFRAID OF ME.

gone are the teenage-cutey-bopsy days of boy crying: "girls are harder to read"

why do time flew so fast. sigh. again.